SO PRETTY! OMG.

Anyway I’m so annoyed! My summon didn’t get waived! I’m going to attempt calling in tomorrow! *Crosses Fingers*

Bill - $50

Summon - $30

DSLR - Approx $1700

Travel concession - $40

Food and other things - $XXXXX

Netbook - $700

Permanent Hair Removal - $XXXX

Lasik - $XXXX

Education - $XXXXXX

How am I going to survive?! Now I’m thinking to get a cheaper DSLR instead of settling for the D90 because I am broke! But I shouldn’t shortchange myself like that. I know I’ll only be happy with the D90! I feel so happy when I’m holding it! Eugh, stupid summon!

I regret opting for Supply Chain specialization back in Year One. Stupdiest choice ever. Anyway, loads of things to do?! I’m going to double up on the coffee for this week!

Went for SBM Club meeting just now with my Juniors and they needed more booths for the Flea event. So they asked me to open a Clicksnleaks booth next Wednesday. I said okay, but I’m quite lost. After all, no one opens a rental booth in Fleas right? Moreover, it’s my first ever flea! Xian and Juls are going to help me man the booth while I’m in class! I hope it goes fine! Although I think I’ll potentially screw up because it’s my first time and I’m so busy this week! HELP.

Just got my eyebrows shaped! Love it! :>

“In solitude the mind gains strength and learns to lean upon itself.”

— Laurence Sterne

OK. I’m glad I whacked my 9days of freedom. Because now that my mum is back, I feel like I’m all locked up again. She hasn’t stopped nagging the moment she touched down. About EVERYTHING and ANYTHING.

*Pulls hair*

Hello babies! :> Here is a tiny update before I bathe and attempt to study! Eugh. Major tests next week!

My parents are home! And my mum have started her choo-choo-train of nags. Neverending. I forgot what peace felt like. Nonetheless, I’ve missed my parents! :> Hehe.

Past week: Got a summon! Eugh. Holland V + Fab Porridge w Casey. Work & House party at Dickson’s Crib! The rest, was just me falling ill. And am still ill! Oh yes, Bedok 85 with Dickson, CS and Joanna then Mango Juice at my place! :> I DROVE THE BMW BTW. CS’ BMW! :> First time driving a BMW! Omg.

Girlies + Oscar the star! :>

Us enjoying home cooked food by Dickson! :>

Oscar and I!

It was such a mad night. Not for me since I’ve toned down a lot. But it was such a funny night. We thought the police was coming cos we spotted a cranky cat neighbour. People went missing in that mansion. I broke a lamp and Samuel had to hold the lamp for me it was such a sight!

Some of us got locked out in the balcony cos we thought we were going to get raided. There was the vomit room, ew. I stepped on other people’s puke. Gross.

Nursed the drunk. Met an old friend. Met many NYP juniors and I had such a fun time talking my night away and playing with Oscarrrr! :> Hehehe!!! So much shit happened btw. I AM SHOCKED.

Anyway, Bedok 85 is <3 I want to bedok 85 again! All I want now is a pint of Ice Cream and more Bedok 85 loving! Me wants! :> Okiedokies. Am going to go now!

xx

P.S I WANT A NETBOOK! And I hope to get my DSLR sooon! What a busy week this week. :<

Hahaha omg too cute! :>

I am stuffing my nose with tissue papers and coughing like crap now. Eugh. I hate being sick! It makes me highly irritable. I’ve snapped at 26435245 people since yesterday. Sorry everyone. Stupid head. Eugh.

Above all that, I’m laughing in the middle of NYP Macs cos I’m hearing Muttons on YouTube! Hilarious! :>

Okay 1/4 of CRM done. 3/4 more! YouTube/Facebook is damn distracting!

Hello! :>

Here is a happy post. About my week of love. I’ve not updated about my week recently because I’ve been SO busy! But this week is soo special and I wna remember it! :>

It isn’t in order bytheway.

Beibei did this book for me! :> So sweet you! Her quote made me laugh like crazy in Starbucks HAHA! Set them on fire?! WTF! So funny! :>

Me <3 you. Hang in there for exams and tolerate okay! It’s never too late! Study hard and don’t regret!

Went out with S, Joey and Yiting the other day after SBM Day, I got the car and we all drove down to Ikea after a major detour at Chompchomp! Heh. Mad love! We talked for sooo long it was so nice! Must hang out again okay convenient friends! Hehe!

BEEFS. Favorite people in school!

Xiansabitch is backkkkk!!! All of us finally finally met up! I love these people so so much. I love how we can don’t meet for 3 months or more because we are just busy but the moment we get together, we are just like different puzzles that fit together and we can talk about anything and yet still feel very comfortable! :>

Early celebration for xianny! :> Am anticipating her cooking! :> The other day was so freaky btw. Xian and I have a brown watch each (her’s more expensive!) and mine stopped, two hours later, hers stopped! 2 days back, my watch started working and I text her, she said hers started working too! Freaky much?!

*****

I have always been complacent and lazy but sometimes my motivation comes on so strong when I read blogs by successful people. People like the BonitoChico people! They’re SO SO successful and they’re a year or 2 older then I am?! I think I need to drown myself with positivity and grow up. The world doesn’t wait for you while you mope around and cry.

I shall be a bigger person and let things go, there is nothing I can do now but draw a line and move on. So I did what I think is right. I will not allow myself to be vulnerable to anyone, to owe anyone anything. I don’t want to rely on anyone but myself and God. I hate how vulnerable I am towards Love. How I’ll falter and let my vision blur. No, no, no. I must be independent. All my life I’ve been giving people reasons, answering to people and listening to them. I will not. I have been molded into someone who says Yes to everything and give in instead of making my stand.

I hope someone will kick my lazy self away. Focus. Focus. Focus. :> CRM is calling me. Stupid CRM and SCM. I don’t get?! And tests are all so soon. Buck up me!

xx

i can love even after all that is left of me is gone
because i have that strength.

-DAUL KIM

If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, set them on fire.

Beibei gave me that quote today. Little did I know it’ll come in handy at a later time tonight. Beneath all the facade with me saying that I’m okay or that I’m done with it. Maybe I am not. Maybe something will happen or something that you say will trigger my inner (angsty) self.

I am angry deep down. Suppressing results in over expressing. I am suppressing. If anything triggers me off. I will fucking explode. So don’t. Leave me alone. I need to be alone.

So many things to do and what the hell am I doing? Oh right. Brooding over stupid things. I thought we could be friends too. But I just realized that I’m not ready. For everything, it takes time. Now it’s not the time and it’s not okay.

I’m setting us on fire, not literally, but I hope everything will burn up and disappear. So maybe one day I’ll really be okay and things can be better.

I am so tired. :<

And a little damn sick. Eugh! My feet feels like it can collapse under me and my head is pounding like crazy! Still have to work later! I am not complaining though because the people there although a little intimidating, are actually vvv nice!

Still have CRM and Entrepreneurship shiz to do. OMG NO TIME OR WHAT.

I’m feeling a little heartbroken again, over the same old things. I hate it when I get sad like that. Not always but once it hits, it hits hard. I feel sad how I am insignificant and how I don’t get thought of even when I gave my all to make it work. Guess we shouldn’t try so hard in somethings. Oh well. It’s days like this that I wish things were like before, but I’ll tell myself to look at the bigger picture. We are happier like that. You look happy. So that’s okay right? Right.

OK. I’m going to down more water before I die in my own phlegm. Gag.

Bye world! I’ll update soon with pictures about my weeeek! <3

OMG SO SEXY?! :> I love a man in a suit! So sexy! :>

Anyway my mum just told me that she’s going to Africa tomorrow morning with my dad! She loves to drop last minute bombs on me! Haha! Anyway I’m so psyched?! Cos I finally get to breathe! A little! :> Although I would trade this small bit of freedom to go to Africa as well.

Between New York and Africa, I’d pick Africa! :> Or maybe not. I don’t know! :> Teehee. Anyway I hope this week will be amazing. I hope everything will work itself out finely!

&&& please, stop raining. Please. I hate the rain. Geesh. OKAY LOVE WORLD LOVE LOVE LOVE. I need to buck up for school! Soon. JUST THINKING ABOUT FRIDAY W MY BBS IS MAKING ME GRIN FROM EAR TO EAR NOW! I hope I didn’t just jinx my happy self. Please give me a great week! :>

<3

I WILL LOVE ANYONE WHO GETS ME A BOTTLE OF THAT!

Jean Paul Madame for Women! :> I want I want.

Oh on a side note. I wish this world would stop being SO serious! Stop reading into everything that I say. I don’t mean everything that I say! Sometimes or rather most of the time I’m joking! Geesh. When I’m serious, it’s pretty obvious! *Smacksforehead*

I WISH (all of) YOU WERE STRANGERS I CAN DISENGAGE.